Thursday, June 18, 2015

A Peom: Inside My Mind

I was feeling poetic today. Enjoy!



When I stare into your eyes I don’t know what to think
But then again I’m not thinking
I’m just being
I’m just breathing
I’m just soaking up the joy of being in your presence
My eyes are dry because I refuse to blink
Afraid that I may miss some of the magnificent things you do like smile, lick your lips, or speak
That voice it makes me so weak
It sounds like melodic tunes in the month of June played in the park while I enjoy an ice cream cone with nuts  
 Aaaaaah so refreshing
Your words are sheer poetry as they escape those perfectly formed lips evoking eargasms and body spasms 
I am in love with you and you don't even know I exist 
I don’t dare speak what’s on my mind for fear of rejection
I’d rather just fantasize about what you would say
Because inside my mind you never turn me down
My advances are welcomed with hugs and kisses and professing of your reciprocated love
Yep it really does feel good loving somebody when somebody loves you back
And that’s a fact
But could this reality ever exist outside my head
I’ll never know because I’m not that brave
 I’ll continue to love you inside my mind where each and every day you are all mine

Monday, March 16, 2015

Love, Heartache and Pain



Where do broken hearts go
Can they find their way home
Back to the open arms
Of a love that's waiting there
And if somebody loves you
Won't they always love you
--Whitney Houston 


 
I often lay in my bed on my back with my feet resting on the headboard looking at this print. I purchased it in college at one of those poster sales they have at the beginning of the semester and it adorned my walls for most of my four and a half years in undergrad. Years later when I bought my first house I had it framed and placed it above my bed. I don’t know who it’s by but this painting has always spoken to me. It is such a colorful striking symbol of what two people who care for and support one another can share. It’s all I ever wanted but for some reason it still evades me.


I don’t know how much disappointment one heart can take before it stops threatening to put up a wall and just does it. I don’t think men know the damage they do when they look a woman in her eyes, tell her he loves her and then betrays her trust. The way I feel now I wonder if that’s the way my mother felt when my father got her pregnant and then didn’t marry her like he said he would. She put up a wall. She never loved another man. My entire life my mother never had a boyfriend, not even a date. I hate she did that. She could have made the right man amazingly happy. She was a good woman. The heart is such a fragile thing. We tell ourselves to just “shake it off,” “we’re bruised not broken,” “get out there and take a shot at love again”. It’s not always that simple. 


During her later years, my mother suffered from paranoid schizophrenia and she created a delusional boyfriend. His name was Edward and they were getting married. She deserved to have someone special even if he only resided in her head. Perhaps her mind did that so she wouldn’t die alone. No one wants to be alone. We were not created to be alone. However, who wants to be with someone who doesn’t know how to love them honestly and honor them? I ask everyone who reads this to be careful when you play with someone’s emotions. You never know the damage that it could do. 

My Side of the Single Life is by book author Jae Henderson. Her inspirational romance novels, Someday, Someday, Too, and Forever and a Day are now available in ebook (Kindle and Nook) and paperback. Get her new ebook Things Every Good Woman Should Know Volume 1 on Amazon.com or Barnesandnoble.com. Also, visit her at www.jaehendersonauthor.com

Monday, February 2, 2015

New Year, New Talk Show

Before I became a book author, I was a radio personality and talk show producer and host. I am proud to announce that I am co-hosting a new blog talk show for those who love the Lord and literature as much as I do. The other host is inspirational writer Ta'Mara Nicole. Our first show was Thursday, January 22nd and I must say I enjoyed myself. The show airs every Thursday at 6 p.m. CST. I hope you will join us this week as we discuss Christian Dating. It promises to be a great discussion. Yet, in the meantime you can check out last week's episode Christian Do's and Don'ts. We talked about some behaviors that may be a little questionable for Christians such women who wear tight outfits and cleavage out to church service, Christian entertainers who have have a clean and a dirty show, Christians who drink alcohol and go to the club, those who say they want a good Christian woman/man then get upset when they are asked to wait to become intimate. See what our guest gospel artist Duran Buckingham had to say. Click here to listen.

THIS THURSDAY.......


The show was great and we even had a chance to talk to certified dating and relationship coach/executive matchmaker Shay "Your Date Diva" Williams Levister. Listen to it here.

My Side of the Single Life is by book author Jae Henderson. Her inspirational romance novels, Someday, Someday, Too, and Forever and a Day are now available in ebook (Kindle and Nook) and paperback. Get her new ebook Things Every Good Woman Should Know Volume 1 on Amazon.com or Barnesandnoble.com. Also, visit her at www.jaehendersonauthor.com